Submissive Guide Journal Prompt

Submissive Journal Prompt 25/06/2017

What personality traits have you found to be the most useful to you in your service?

My love of knowledge and learning, has helped, it has helped my service over the years, especially when I have wanted to throw in the towel and give up. I am always looking to learn better ways of doing things and being useful. When I find myself in self destructive periods, learning through reading books, though sometimes more depressive as I often wish I had the relationships that were being portrayed in the books, or belong to the communities being portrayed, has helped bring myself out of those periods.

I have always loved being of use, I often say that if I were a car I would be an SUV because they are practical vehicles that have many uses. It is just how I have always been. I use this asset in almost my every day life, though if I think about it, I am using it even when I don’t think I am. I love it when I can surprise G with knowledge about his industry or one of his personal interests that he didn’t know, but one that I didn’t know I knew because I picked it up organically. It doesn’t happen with DW as much, or maybe it is that I just don’t get that same sense of satisfaction from it that I get from G, that or it has just disappeared into the monotony of our every day lives.

Back when I first started out, my slave name was talibah, which meant seeker of knowledge, I am still seeking knowledge, however as with my previous writing on the Thoughts of the Week post, I have found myself to be using it as a procrastination tool. It is one thing to seek useful knowledge, or knowledge that could be useful in the future, but something else to seek knowledge for no reason but to avoid doing something you know you should be doing.

Submissive Guide Journal Prompt

Submissive Journal Prompt 18/06/2017

“You can change no one but yourself.” – Anonymous

I agree with this, and I am often trying to change myself to suit the needs of others, however, this often leads to me forgetting who I am and often resenting the people around me when I feel like I am being forced to change into something that is against who I am as a person. While this is ok for some, it is not something that I am comfortable with most/all of the time. If I am not myself, then who am I, what is my purpose, why would someone want me if I am no longer the person that they wanted in the beginning. Sure we all change parts for our Owners, but generally they are only small behavioural things, and over a long period of time, to the point where we don’t notice the change happening and it becomes part of our self.

Submissive Guide Journal Prompt

Submissive Journal Prompt 11/6/2017

Are you an exhibitionist? Does your body image affect how you feel about being exposed in public?

To be completely honest, I’m not an exhibitionist, or rather, I can have some exhibitionist thoughts, usually doing things without others in the vicinity knowing what is happening. But they aren’t something I see myself acting on due to my negative body image due to my weight, but I think about it much, the main thing that stops me is the fact that I dislike drawing attention to myself or being the center of attention, so I tend to avoid anything that would put me in that position.